30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 29-30

Christmas tree is up and my 5-year-old constantly gasps every time she takes out each Christmas ornament from the box. Everything seems to bring memories from the past and she wonders at each and every one as if she’s never seen them before. She is too cute for words and my husband and I constantly share looks that say, “Can’t believe we are so blessed with so much.” But I don’t have to pinch myself to know this is my life. I have my loving husband and two beautiful girls to remind me and they are just the beginning of God’s endless blessings in my life.

And then I search…search for the one ornament that is the most precious to me. I go through the entire ornament box and stir everything in it to find the tiny little heart-shaped crystal. The memory from now almost 2 years ago rushes back to me and I get a little dizzy.

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L.W. 1.17.2012

That is what’s written inside. We called him Little Wiggles because he wiggled so much in my womb. My son, my baby, who never got to share the joy of everyday wonders and giggles with this silly but beautiful family. And for that, my heart aches. As I hang the crystal on the tree, I thank God for the day I’ll finally get to see him and get to know him forever. How I’ll rejoice watching my two girls telling their brother all about their silly parents… And I tear up, thanking God for this moment to remember our Little Wiggles and for the hope I have in Christ. I feel a warm embrace from my husband and we say nothing to each other but know what each other is thinking. And I’m thankful that we can share without having to use words.

Pain of loss never goes away unfortunately but because of His promises, unbearable things become bearable and in the end, the pain turns into hope and thanksgiving. And my thanksgiving list goes on yet another day.

Day 29: High Five That!

“All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.” (2 Corinthians 4:15)

Day 30: Holding on to His Promises

“They reeled and staggered like drunkards;they were at their wits’ end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.” (Psalm 107: 27-31)


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 20-28

The more I learn about God, I realize how little I know. And I simply love that. God reveals Himself to me constantly through something different, through somebody unique and through newer and deeper understanding and He’s never boring yet always trustworthy. And I notice how much more He has been revealing himself to me lately and I know why. It’s my thanksgiving. The more I give thanks to Him, the more He reveals himself to me and everyday is like a Christmas morning. I can’t wait to unwrap what He has planned for me everyday.

And I pray that December never ends…that Christmas never ends…and I know it’s all up to me. As long as I keep giving thanks to Him, I’ll see His glorious and gracious sweet loving face everyday. My thanksgiving should never cease because I’m selfish and I want Christmas everyday. So here, I add one more thing to my to-do list. Don’t forget to give thanks!

Day 20: Enter into His Kingdom with Thanksgiving

“Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him; bless His name. For the Lord is good; His loving kindness is everlasting, and His faithfulness to all generations.” (Psalms 100:4-5)

Day 21: Give It All to Receive Much More

You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.” (2 Corinthians 9:11)

Day 22: The True Understanding of Thanksgiving

I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people.” (1 Timothy 2:1)

Day 23: Thanksgiving is the Pathway to Peace

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And
the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
(Philippians 4:6-7)

Day 24: The Road Less Traveled

The Lord will surely comfort Zion and will look with compassion on all her ruins; he will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the Lord. Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of singing.” (Isaiah 51:3)

Day 25: Where Would I Be Without the Atoning Blood of Christ?

Is not the cup of thanksgiving for which we give thanks a participation in the blood of Christ? And is not the bread that we break a participation in the body of Christ?” (1 Corinthians 10:16)

Day 26: A Sense of Gratitude

For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you,
remembering you in my prayers.”
(Ephesians 1:15-16)

Day 27: I Left My Heart in an Unexpected Place

“So, we, your people and sheep of Your pasture, will give you thanks forever; we will show forth Your praise to all generations.” (Psalm 79:13)

Day 28: Grateful for the Word of God

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. (John 1:1)


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 19

Day 19: Remembering the Good

“Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits.” (Psalm 103:2)

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways…I don’t know if Elizabeth Browning ever counted ways how she loved her Heavenly Father when she wrote her poem but I know my list of how I love God can go on and on forever and that there will be no end to it because there’s no end to how He loves me.

As I write my testimony that I was asked to share with a group of ladies tonight, I find myself walking the memory lane, having trouble remembering things from my past…all the bad and unkind things seem so far away now and all I remember is God’s grace and His light throughout my life. No, I didn’t necessarily see His love and protection then, but now that I know the truth, that is all I see. Remembering good is not hard for me because God is good and I thank God for His goodness that goes on and on and on, just like my list of how I love Him.

I hear my little Chloe bear’s little whimpering as she’s waking up from her sweet morning nap and I thank God for His goodness and graciousness for entrusting me that precious child of his. I pray that I can train my daughters to remember God’s goodness all the days of their lives.


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 18

Day 18: The Essenes of Thanksgiving

“When the builders laid the foundation of the temple of the Lord, the priests in their vestments and with trumpets, and the Levites (the sons of Asaph) with cymbals, took their places to praise the Lord, as prescribed by David king of Israel. With praise and thanksgiving they sang to the Lord: “He is good;his love toward Israel endures forever.” And all the people gave a great shout of praise to the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid. But many of the older priests and Levites and family heads, who had seen the former temple, wept aloud when they saw the foundation of this temple being laid, while many others shouted for joy. No one could distinguish the sound of the shouts of joy from the sound of weeping, because the people made so much noise. And the sound was heard far away.” (Ezra 3:10-13)
I give you thanks, Lord, with shouts of joy, with music, with dancing, with tears, with lifted hands and with prayers. You are good.

30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 17

Day 17: One Day…Some Day

“I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people.” (1 Timothy 2:1)

I sit in front of my computer mindlessly, going through emails. Feeling tired but somehow I don’t feel accomplished today so I want to check few things off of my to-do list. There’s an email, Bible verse of the day, and it says John 13:34-35. “A new command I give you: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” And then I think to myself, was I loving today? Was I able to check “loved someone today” off of my to-do list today? Did I make anyone to think, ah, that person must be a child of God? And I’m not so sure….

It’s so easy to be selfish because me, myself and I are all around me and I can’t seem to think away from me. But it is not about me, is it? If it was, the moment I was saved, God the Father would have called me home and I would be “up” there, with Him, wherever it might be. And I have responsibility to love and make petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving for all people. That should be the first thing on my to-do list, everyday, btu the reality is that it isn’t. And I get very tired of my human sinful nature and be thankful for unending God’s grace at the same time. And He is loving. And all people know that He loves because He is love.

Be loving. I scribble that on top of my to-do list today and I promise myself that I shall try to check it off of my to-do list everyday for as long as I shall live.


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 16

Day 16: We Dream Big. God Dreams Better.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,“plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

This morning as I read Jeremiah 29:11, I’m thankful for God’s wonderful plan for my life and my family. I remember holding on to Jeremiah 29:11 for the past two pregnancies of ours, crying out to God for His mercy on me and His protection over my unborn babies. The same high risk pregnancies with the same problems and symptoms but one resulted in miscarriage and another resulted in one of the most beautiful baby girls I’ve ever seen.  I vividly remember as if it was just yesterday how, every time I recite that verse, God rewarded me with His peace that surpasses all understanding and how I was thankful, so thankful for His grace, love and mercy even in the midst of my deepest sorrow of losing a child. Yes, I remember His warm embrace that consoled me and how meditating on Jeremiah 29:11 between my sobs comforted me…. And I finally understood…how God must have felt when He lost His precious son. No, it’s not even remotely close but I saw the pain and the depth of God’s sorrow He must have endured. Oh, how I love Him….

It’s been few years now and with my precious boy in heaven with Jesus and another sweet darling baby girl playing along side of her older sister, and I’m so grateful for God’s plan, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future. One of my unbelieving sisters asked me once soon after my miscarriage, ‘why did your God take your baby boy away?!’ I didn’t know myself and I didn’t have an answer for her. But still I told her. I told her that I was not sure, though I could come up with so many reasons why. I told her it doesn’t change anything. I told her that God still loves me and He has a wonderful plan for my life. I told her that His ways are higher than mine and His thoughts, my thoughts. But most of all, my hope in Him is greater than ever, if that’s even possible, and at the end of that hope, God’s grace will rewarded me with extra joy because I’ll get to see my precious boy and will get to know him forever. All because God loves me….

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,“plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

Yes, indeed. The verse is hung above my darling baby girl’s crib when she was born to let her know how God loves her and how He has a wonderful plan for her. And to remind myself everything that God has done for me and many more blessings He’s going to pour down on me. I’m thankful for the hope in Christ and for the little precious two princesses in my arms that I get to call forever mine.


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 8-15

My sweet precious mother-in-law is visiting us right now and she has been such a blessing for the past few days as usual. One thing I love the most about her visits with us is watching her and Bella baking all sorts of things; bread, cookies, pies, muffins, etc. And yes, right at this moment, they are baking some pumpkin pies and a whole wheat bread together, giggling and laughing and talking about all sorts of silly things.

What precious memories they are making together and knowing that Bella will look back and remember and treasure those sweet moments with her nana DO makes my heart full. So I captured the moments in my little camera to freeze them forever in my head and be thankful for ever.

Day 8: The Circle of Faith, Love and Gratitude

We ought always to thank God for you, brothers and sisters, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love all of you have for one another is increasing.” (2 Thessalonians 1:3)

Day 9: Grandma’s Cookie Jar

“I thank my God every time I remember you.” (Philippians 1:3)

Day 10: Our Strength Comes From The Lord

“I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies.” (Psalm 18:1-3)

Day 11: A Legacy to Extend

“I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my
prayers.
Recalling your tears, I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy. I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and,I am persuaded, now lives in you also. For this  reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands.” (2 Timothy 1:3-6)

Day 12: Water Droplets

“…And I shall go about Thine altar, O Lord, that I may proclaim with the voice of thanksgiving and declare all Thy wonders (miracles).” (Psalms 26:6-7)

Day 13: Unshakable Gratitude

“Therefore since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe.” (Hebrews 12:28)

Day 14: An Orphan Tradition

“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.” (James 1:27)

Day 15: God’s “People Gifts”

“I thank my God every time I remember you.” (Philippians 1:3)


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 7

Day 7: Thankful for God’s Creatures

“Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.” (Genesis 9:16)

I’m not an animal or pet person. My girls can ask for pets for Christmas all they want but they won’t be getting any, at least under my roof. I just don’t do animals (sorry, girls, but Mommy loves you very much!). However, it is indeed a sight to watch my little Bella jumping up and down, getting so excited about bugs, insects and anything and everything that moves, breathes, flies and crawls. Yes, I draw the line at my doorstep as far as the animals are concerned but I do get astonished by all the living creatures that God created and how they were all good in His sight when he made them. Yes, they were all good…and that’s what I tend to forget everyday….that they are all good.

Instead of the goodness of things, I find faults in everything somehow and with those faults, I bring myself down, way down, away from God sometimes. Why do I do that? Why do I not choose to see goodness in things and people and celebrate and rejoice in them? Why do I always try to take harder and more tiresome path?

I haven’t been feeling well lately and when my body is tired, all my strength and discipline seem to go out the door. Instead of thanking God for another beautiful day, I chose to grumble about how tired and sick I feel. Instead of thanking God for blessing us with my beautiful family, I chose to focus on my to-do list for them and for our house. Sometimes I do feel as though I’ll never learn…but then, I do always hear Him say, “Lean on me, child. You can’t do it alone. I’ve got you, today. Rest under my wings for a moment and be renewed.” And I love Him for such sweet comfort and such timing….

So today, that’s just what I’ll do. I’m going to hide under his wings for a moment and rest and be renewed. I’m going to soak up His unfailing love as much as I can so that I can pour my love out to others around me. Today, the devil is going to have to deal with my Father, whom I’ll be hiding behind, until tomorrow when I can stand firm against him with a renewed mind!

I’m thankful that I can take a day off from time to time and hide under my Father’s wings to get strength back!


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 4, 5 & 6

Day 4: Seeds of Thankfulness

“Enter His gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.” (Psalm 100:4)

As Bella drops 10% of her weekly allowance into her ‘tithe money jar’ we ask why we give to God and to Him first. And she doesn’t get the answer right for the past few months although we do this every week. It is frustrating and I wonder what did I do wrong? Is it too difficult for her to understand? No, she gets harder questions all the time. And then I stop and think. I’m grateful that my little girl has an opportunity to get to know her heavenly Father at a young age unlike her mother and get to experience the width and depth of His love growing up, which I knew nothing of. It’s those little things that bother me daily but I’m indeed planting….seeds of thankfulness. And then I realize, it’s not just about me and God. My thanksgiving affects my children as well and it is my responsibility to plant that seed well in my girls’ precious hearts. And with that, my morning looks so different, heavy with responsibilities but hopeful with brighter future and God’s rewards!

Day 5: What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Hopeful

“…and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also; knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope.” (Romans 5:3-4)

I didn’t have hope before Christ in my life but now that I have found God, my life is full of hopes. That is why I see answers where no answer could be found and I see joy where there’s nothing but despair in our human eyes. This place I’m living with my earthly body is not my home and the troublesome road that I need to take to get home, no matter how hard and impossible it may seem at times, is nothing compared to the warm embrace of my heavenly Father and His sweet whisper, “well done, my good and faithful child…come and share my happiness.” And because of that hope, I soldier on yet another day with joy and thanksgiving.

Day 6: Spinning In Circles

“I always thank my God for you because of His grace given you in Christ Jesus.” (1 Corinthians 1:4)

My husband used to say about someone who did an awful things in the eyes of justice, “and yet, he also is a child of God and I’m supposed to love him.” Yes, sometimes he says it with a sarcastic tone of voice but he says it nonetheless and I know he’s speaking the truth. We all are children of God and no one deserves that title but somehow we do with God’s grace. So yes, we should offer thanksgiving for others and their differences and when we do, we’ll see the face of God in the oppositions.


30 Days of Thanksgiving:Day 3

Day 3: Say WHAT?

“But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people. Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.” (Ephesians 5:3-4)

“Why is that you don’t fight for your soul but for everything else in the name of rights?” I hear someone say this on a TV show and I agree. Why is that?

We are surrounded by imperfection and immorality and nobody can dispute that. There’s no escaping either and it’s all because of what took place in the garden of Eden and the sin that entered this world through the first man, Adam. Trials are given and the evil surrounds us in this world and yet we are not to belong to the world. How, Lord? I ask Him and the answer is always simple. ‘Through me, child, and only through me.’ He whispers. I know I can do all things through Him who strengthens me and that His grace is sufficient enough. More than enough. And I’m thankful for His grace yet again and His strength that sustains me.

There is immorality, impurity and greed all around me and people are so foolish sometimes. And I witness so many things that are not of God daily and I’m down and burdened. But then I hear again and again; ‘Through me, child, and only through me.’ And I’m thankful for his gentle whisper in my ears that never stops.


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