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Word of the Month: July, 2012 {GRACE}

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you;the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”  -Numbers 6:24-26

I’m just so grateful that my God is bigger than any troubles and trials in my life and that His grace is…simply sufficient. I’ve been selfishly praying for God’s blessing for me for the past few weeks and I know that is totally ok with God.

 


Word of the Month: June, 2012 {RENEW}

Renew

: to make like new : restore to freshness, vigor, or perfection
:to make new spiritually
After about 7 hours of sleep and two cups of coffee, you would think that I would be refreshed and energized but no. I’m quite tired and my head hurts every time I move my eyes from one point to another. I close my eyes for a few seconds, imagining God opening the floodgates of heaven and pouring down the rain of healing, energy and renewal. I open my eyes back up. Nothing. I’m still tired and my head still hurts. But I know I’ll get there…eventually.

It all started with our littlest one, Chloe bear, about 10 days ago. She started with projectile vomiting followed by diarrhea that would never end. After a couple visits to the doctor’s office, IV, medicine to prevent vomiting and lots of Pedialyte later, she finally has gotten better but by that point, it spread to the entire family and we had a great 6 days of being stuck in the house and forced bonding time together. Everyone was going crazy and at times, it was quite ugly unfortunately. Cleaning up vomits and bathroom accidents are not pretty and quite nasty but the worst thing is that I can’t do anything to make things better for our little ones but pray and wait. :-( Feeling helpless as a parent is the worst, I must say. However, I believe the worst has passed now and I pray that whatever virus it was has left this house!

We go through ups and downs in life and I feel like I have been on the down path long enough, not only with sickness but with emotional and mental health as well. Just like feeling helpless when my children are sick, I do feel helpless because I don’t know what else to try. I pray and hope for renewal and restoration but it’s not up to me when my prayers are answered. But I know I’ll get there…eventually. Because I know that God has awesome plans for me and for now, I’m just holding on to that promise until I finally see it myself.

“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” Isiah 40:31-

 


Word of the Month: January, 2012 {Emmanuel}

Emmanuel

: Jesus Christ, especially as the Messiah
: from Hebrew `immānū’el, literally: God with us
Today, January 1, 2012, our pastor John’s sermon was on “God’s greatest desire for you in 2012” and he talked about what God desires the most more than anything is to be “with” us. And I’m thinking to myself, ‘hmm, how crazy is that?!’ since I know for a fact that I’m so undeserving and unworthy. But I also know for a fact that I’m a precious child of God and whom am I to question whether or not what God desires is crazy?! So this year, my “new year’s resolution” is to be with God….more intentionally.

I have no doubt that God is in the center of my life, our marriage and our family and that He is present at all times. However, I do neglect Him often and don’t give Him the time or respect He deserves. No, this is not the first time I realize this nor will it be last. But I’m thankful for yet another chance to set my priority straight and I pray that I improve and do better this time than last.

So I’m happy to say that my greatest desire in 2012 is ‘God with us and I with Him’ so that I can worship my God without fear!


Word of the Month: December {Blessed}

Blessed

:consecrated; sacred; holy; sanctified
:worthy of adoration, reverence, or worship
:divinely or supremely favored; fortunate
:blissfully happy or contented.
It’s Christmas time. My family of four is complete (at least for now) with baby Chloe’s arrival. We are surrounded by lovely friends. We all are given good health and financially, we have more than enough to take care of us and share with others to glorify God. There’s nothing more we NEED and God is in the center of our household and everything that we do. We are blissfully happy and contented. And lastly, God favors and loves us so much and we Him….
We are simply B.L.E.S.S.E.D.
Thank you, God. It’s all because of you and it’s all for you.

Word of the Month: August {Expecting}

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Expecting

: to look forward to the probable occurrence or appearance of
: to look forward to the birth of one’s child
: to consider due
Oh, yes, I’m so looking forward to the birth of our No. 2 princess! :-)
I’m on 34th week of my pregnancy and it’s becoming more and more real every day! The talk of sleepless nights and nighttime feedings are common topics of my husband and I these days and we are reminiscing the old days with our firstborn and all the crazy but beautiful changes in our lives that occurred about 4 years ago. Those were the days and now we are going to go through them all over again plus almost 4-year-old princess to take care of! How fun is my life going to be?! :-)
At our last doctor’s visit, we were given a tentative date for delivery and although it needs to be confirmed, we are looking at Sept. 6th as of now. I can’t believe it’s only about 4 weeks away till we meet our little princess face to face! Of course, things are not ready (at least in my head…if you ask Daddy, we are totally ready for this baby in terms of “things and stuff”) but at this point where I’m spending most of my days “bed resting,” I sort of decided that it’ll do FOR NOW. And believe me, that’s not easy thing for me to say at all!
With this child, my husband and I are expecting more responsibility, more expense, less sleep, less time for ourselves, more effort to be put into our marriage, etc. However, those things are nothing compared to all the wonderful things that come along with her; more joy, more laughter, more cuteness, more blessing, more tears (of joy), more love, more kisses & hugs, more love, etc.
Thank you, God….

Word of the Month: July {Prioritize}

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Prioritize

: to arrange or deal with in order of importance
: to organize or deal with something according to its priority
Sometimes I feel like my life is just simply a chaos. Too many things to be done and simply not enough time to do them. Our daughter is growing so fast and I can hardly keep up with her. For me (and Bella) summer means no school, which is translated into “Mommy should come up with things and activities for Bella to do.” The baby No. 2 is coming soon and there will be more chaos when she arrives, so I need to take advantage of “quite” time right now and get things done. My husband still needs his wife and I’m it. The house, well, sadly doesn’t run by itself (what’s up with that?!!) and I won’t even bother to talk about cleaning. And all this is without the things I want to have done as well as some “me-time.” Wow, I’m exhausted just talking about it.

I’m always in a rush to do things because there are simply too many things to be done. However, I realized that they are all in my head! I keep asking myself, ‘why do I even have to do them in the first place?’If I die tomorrow and go home to Jesus, would they matter?’ The truth is NOBODY cares and neither will I if I were to die tomorrow! So I guess, it all comes down to my “controlling” issue and like always, I need to work on surrendering everything to God and prioritizing things in my life IN ORDER OF IMPORTANCE so that I don’t drive myself or others around me crazy! This most likely means “changed priorities” for me and I’m a bit nervous…

Both fortunately and unfortunately, it’s clearly written in the Bible.

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33

In other words, God first and everything else next. Simple as that. Of course, God had to make it so clear that I don’t miss it or can’t pretend I didn’t see it! God, you know me too well! :-)

So, I suppose I’ll work on prioritizing my life this month of July. Yes, I have tried it before and yes, I have failed numerous times before. But clearly, I’m not perfect and there’s nothing else for me to do but keep trying. Who knows? Maybe I’ll get there someday! (*note to Hubby: I suggest that you don’t get too excited about this. Don’t expect a quick change from me plus all the honey-to-do list I give you are non-negotiable so don’t even try! *^^*)

 


Word of the Month: June {Patient}

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Patient

: bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
: manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
: not hasty or impetuous
: steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
I don’t bear things well; hence, I’m not a patient person. I have a mild case (I suppose, depending on who you ask) of OCD. I like having lists and marking them off when they are done. My brain doesn’t shut off unless things are done. I don’t know how to relax and enjoy life UNLESS my to-do list is complete. I like things done in my way and everyone should do it my way, if possible! These are just examples of why I’m not a very patient person and that is why I decided to try being more patient….at least in the month of June! :-) Of course, there’s a reason why {Patient} became the Word of the Month. Read below….

I’ve had tired and busy days for the past few days. I’ve been getting up before 6 a.m. everyday like a clock against my “will” which means I’ve been starting many mornings already tired and cranky. One day last week, I had to watch a friend’s daughter untill mid-afternoon and though my daughter gets along well with her friend most of the time, this day, they both were literally crazy and out of control. All day long, I had to follow them around, asking them to share and be nice and not to yell, whine, throw things or be mean to each other. I was literally ready to pull my hair out or lock them up in separate rooms!

By the time Bella’s friend got picked-up, it was already too late for my daughter to take a nap so I didn’t get any “Mommy time” to rest that afternoon. Unfortunately for me, Daddy was going to come home late that day due to a meeting he had to attend for work, so we played outside in the kiddie pool in 92 degree heat. I assure you, this was a much better alternative than constantly being nagged by her till that night. Two hours were spent outside in the heat and there were numerous getting ups and downs for Mommy and blowing many water bloons. By this point, I was literally on the verge of collapsing though there’s no excuse for what I did afterwards.

Bella was being her usual happy self and giggling while pulling and hanging onto my skirt as I walked around in the house, trying to clean things up. I was tired and it was even harder being pregnant to have 36-lb-person dangling on me constantly. That’s when something snapped in my head and I turned around and raised my voice at her, “Bella!!!! Can’t you just leave Mommy alone for two seconds, please?! Come on, already!!!” Oh, you should’ve seen the pain and hurt in my precious daughter’s tiny little face and her lips trembled along with her teary eyes. It broke my heart to pieces right then and there and I wish I could take it back. She turned around and head right to her bedroom crying, “I want my Daddy~” I closed my eyes regretting instantly what I’ve done to my little angel and hated myself so much at that moment.

All Bella wanted to do was playing and having fun with her Mommy and I snapped at her because I couldn’t bear my physical tiredness and annoyance. I felt terrible and I was disappointed at myself. I didn’t have a good parent role model growing up and I always feared that I’d be bad at being a Mommy. By grace of God, I do pretty well in being an OK Mommy but I do see the glimpse of what could’ve been without God’s grace from time to time and that scares me. I know I can’t live in that fear and God helps me through it but being a human as I am, I still get tempted numerous times a day.

Later that night, I apologized to my little girl (by then, she’d already forgotten everything…how quick they are to forgive and forget and how I wish I could do the same!) and gave her extra TLC. My hubby, after hearing what had happened, said, “kids don’t remember things happened at this age when they grow up. In fact, Bella won’t remember most of her toddler years as she gets older so don’t beat yourself up!” He might be right but I will know. I will remember.

Physical limit is my biggest enemy in being patient, although it shouldn’t be an excuse in any way. Being pregnant and not being able to do things doesn’t help at all, especially when I have things to do in my head. The difference between my hubby, who is very patient, and I are the priority we set in our minds. How my to-do list is always so urgent in my head is just beyond me! So, my goal this month is that I’d take time to focus on more important things (things that God views as important that is!) and take time (patiently!) to enjoy life and time with my daughter. Perhaps I can be more patient with people around me and things that need to be done. But most importantly, I want to be patient with my precious daughter. After all, I want my daughter to know what it is to be loved and treasured more than anything….


Word of the Month

Welcome to the Word of the Month!

I often feel like my life is out of control, unorganized and all over the place. Frankly, I don’t know how people do it; remain so calm, self-controlled and organized and those people drive me crazy! :-) Recently, I’ve found that it helps me to think of a specific word in certain situations to calm me down, focus and regain control and my life seems so much better organized.

For example, when I’m panicky or anxious, the word “peace” or “prayer” helps me so much. When I’m feeling lost or alone, the word “hope” or “husband” gets me going. In the month of December when things are crazy with things like holidays, shopping and travelling, the word “Jesus,” “family” or “blessed” help me to refocus on the true meaning for the season. You got the idea?

So there came the idea of the Word of the Month. Every month, you can come up with a word that will guide you and help you focus. It can be any word that you wish for that month (what you want to focus on, what you are going through, whatever is special, etc.). After posting, make sure you link back to my blog to share your Word of the Month with others (the Word of the Month will be posted on the 1st of every month but you may link up until the 10th of month since I know you can’t always post things on schedule).

Have fun and I hope the words you’ll be posting will help and guide your life as they did for me! God bless you!


Word of the Month: May {Nesting}

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Nesting

: to form a nest for
: to pack compactly together
: to form a hierarchy, series, or sequence of with each member, element, or set contained in or containing the next <nestedsubroutines>
 
:Nesting in pregnancy: feeling the need to prepare for the arrival of the baby by cleaning, organizing, etc. Often happens toward the end of pregnancy
Yes, we’re expecting and yes, I’m nesting and yes, I’m only half way there. :-)

I can’t seem to sit still and every time I try, my head spins with thoughts of cleaning out anything and everything, designing baby’s room as well as the entire house and purchasing and returning things repeatedly in my head. I’m ONLY half way there and I’m totally exhausted! I keep telling myself that everything will be just fine and that the most important thing is to have a healthy baby in my arms at the end of this pregnancy. However, I have a OCD, I like things to look nice and pretty and when I clean, I have to clean out the whole house before I’m satisfied. That is how I am and I haven’t found a way to do it any other way.

I think nesting is the word people use for expectant mothers and often times it accompanies other words like stress, frustration, impatience. My husband often tells me to slow down and take it easy since he worries about my health and well-being, which I think it’s so sweet. But what people don’t understand is that nesting also brings love, joy, happiness and lots of butterflies in expectant mother’s beautifully grown belly. While “nesting”, I spend much time thinking about all the wonderful memories that our family will create with the new baby in her room and imagining all the tiny beautiful features of my baby’s face and her tiny body while enjoying every moment and small things I do for our little princess out of love. It is true; all the hard work is not fun sometimes but at the end of all that, I have a hope of a beautiful baby girl and her smiles and that is more than I can hope for or dream of.

While waiting for our little princess’ arrival on this earth, I keep thinking about my Heavenly Father. He loves me more than I can ever fathom and He loves our little princess even more than I can ever love her and trust me, that is A LOT! I wonder if He spends time seeing our family’s future with our new baby and smiling at all the wonderful memories we’ll create. I wonder if He has butterflies in “His stomach” as well because He’s just so excited for us. I wonder if His joy is much more than mine because for Him, it’s not just our new baby’s happiness and smiles that matters but mine and our family’s as well. I wonder if His brain never stops going thinking about us, just like mine…. I wonder if He’s also nesting. :-) Though what He experiences might be different from mine (human experience vs. well, God’s!), I have a feeling that the love nd joy He feels is not that different from mine.

I’m dreaming of a pink room for our second princess (I do most of the dreaming, designing and all easy parts, of course while my loving hubby does all the hard labor of lifting, moving, painting, etc. *^^* I love that man!!) and I must say, I’m happy nesting right now.

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Samantha Harris & Her Baby's Pink & Brown Room I Love!


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